This became a huge problem when Roberto and I started dating. We almost broke up ones (in the beginning) because of it. I actually think that might have been a big part why we had our break too. Because this makes me very needy sometimes. For his attention, not now anymore. That's actually some progress I've made. Hmm NEver thought of that. I NEVER see progress. I might see some when I compare one thing, let's say my face charts, from the first one until today. But I still think they're just as bad... yes that's another thing. I say they're just as bad. Instead of just as good. Because they are good. I think.
ANYWAYSSSS... My mum said yesterday, something like "I ask you some things to make you think about problems differently". Now I totally undestand and knew what she meant BUT the first thing that popped into my head was "But why, do I usually think in a bad way". It's always ALWAYS the negative. Not little negative things HUGE negative things.
The big question we came to after our long conversation was. How on EARTH am I so happy? How can I be happy when I think nothing I do is good enough, I don't think I fit in with many people because, why would they want to be my friend? It doesn't seem as people want to be my friend. STILL I have a bunch of friends and work friends and. I'm just blind.
Sorry for babbling. I'm not looking for any sympathy or tips or anything. SImply just wanted to share my thoughts. Often when I do share my thoughts I'm better of not getting advice even if you mean well. It's hard to explain but many times when I get advice after posts like this and I haven't asked for it, it feels quite, crappy HAHA. hope you understnad :)
Oh and the pictures are from Sollefteå. I'll be back in just a little bit over 2 weeks, tickets are booked!